Willie Style

Switched over to South Park, so much more entertaining and not depressing. Not the best influence, but something to rid myself of the horrific violent streak I've had recently.
Where does it emanate from?
I don't know exactly. If I were Catholic, I'd go see the Father.
But I'm not, so I have to blame myself and my own father and the people around me and my situation and my choices and my lousy boss and not getting my checks on time and being the office bitch and getting phone calls at 1am in the morning and goddamn fucking Gap and Sears calling me on Sunday morning to collect $$$ and gas prices going up and my truck getting old and working my ass off to no great reward and the fucking A/C being out 2 days and worrying about who I haven't called recently because they will call me soon enough to bitch me out for not being a good friend (there's more than one) but they don't know what's up in my life now and for not having the balls to stand up for myself and for allowing people to walk over me and for one second giving into others when I know goddamn well that I'm right and for fucking fags that act like fags (i am one so i can say that, does it make it better?) and well, just I need to chill the fuck out and smoke a bowl, drink some Shiraz, eat something savory and start the day anew.

Keep telling myself and others - "Let's get on with the program! What's the holdup?"
I hate that as I get older, I have less patience. But ya ain't gettin' younger!!

Carpe Fucking Diem, eh?!?!