Willie Style

in brownwood for hpu homecoming - nice weather -visit old friends - work interspersed thruout - seen napoleon dynamite twice - find something to entertain oneself in this boring town since i refuse to subvert myself to the bar again w/ the nasty smoke and awful music

wilma (haha, wilma) is out in the gulf,
please don't come here, stay away.
can't imagine just starting repairs on your house only to have another hurricane come thru again.

i think this week one year ago i started my blog.
now, officially free of any strings to anyone,anyplace.
time for a break. finish the vacation, a real vacation, not a working one.
think i'll reminisce now.

i miss everyone, need to see my peeps. hugs to all!

4 hours of sleep, nap during the day, repeat cycle.
could be the feathers and down in my bedding, could the burning of green pine trees, could be the mosquito chemspray put in the air from a truck right next to me, could be the general nastiness of the area, could be anything, just want it to stop.

anyway, it's sunday, i've lost track of the days, is why i quit numbering. at this point, not too much progress, wasting time, company can't seem to provide adjusters w/ the proper docs they need to do the job. maybe done on purpose, suspicions linger.

looking for beer, but alas these podunk religious towns are DRY - no!!

looking for skinny people, i think i would be the sole competitor in a skinny-person contest here. people here are FAT, ohmygod, they eat and eat and nothing else from what i can tell. i thought Brownwood was bad. ugh!

7 years ago today.....hugs to his parents

skipped a few days of posts, yeah i know, slacker

did a wedding, another wedding, groomsman thing
worth it only to look forward to smashing oneself on free margaritas
and enjoying mini-Stevesdeli-sandwiches

flies, mosquitoes, more flies & mosquitoes... everywhere in Silsbee (north of Beaumont)
cranking away at the computer, being a busybody
sleeping on a pseudo-bed/couch thingy not good for the body
allergies go away plz, Claritin my best friend now, (hugs)

no word from work but trying to check in and see if i'm missed
oh what am i saying, i was barely noticed when i was there, haha
the part-time marketing person wrote to say hi, (hugs)
hopefully can come back to being self-employed and answer to me, myself and I.

miss the girls, always so motherly in that caring way to see how you are.
guys to some extent but girls are still the best counselors ;-)

instant flash of inspiration interrupts the blogpost -
i shall return to my home and begin writing a script, or a book, or some fiction about the drama in and around my life and that i observe in others. names will be changed to protect the guilty. i see $$ to be made, i see a new soap opera or a Broadway play or a movie with Meryl Streep playing multiple characters. why not turn the boring life around and share what i have seen, heard, experienced. write me now if you wish to remain anonymous - haha!

closing thought - despite the chaos that defines the news world as the sun rises and sets, i can faithfully read the latest headlines and always count on things that really should be reported as fact - GW Bush as the worst president ever, Republicans being indicted yet again and Iraq as the mosquito bite that just won't go away, scabbing and festering and lingering.

(from mediamatters.org) - Focus on the Family founder and chairman James C. Dobson predicted on his radio program that allowing same-sex marriage in the United States would lead to "group marriage," "marriage between daddies and little girls," or "marriage between a man and his donkey." Dobson called this vision of the future "more or less a prophecy," though, he stressed, not a "divine prophecy, but a prediction." He said that his specific examples, as well as "anything allegedly linked to civil rights," will be "doable, and the legal underpinnings for marriage will have been destroyed."

i'm on my way home in the a.m.
yay! the twilight is starting to fade.
making some progress.
unfortunately i have to immediately go to brownwood for a wedding.
yippee skip. oh what the str8s get to do, spend money and have lavish ceremonies. barf.
then back to the grind next week.
later.

not much progress today,
entirely baffled to some degree by the software i have to use,
not blessed with 30 years of construction experience to figure it out solo

need to buy stock in the Pappas family of restaurants
nice thing about Houston is they are all around - dont have to drive far
tonite was bbq, not as good as rudy's back home but close enuf

yes, for those of you asking, i am temporarily in Houston, H-town as the locals call it
strictly for work though, austin is still home
but the H is growing on me, could see living here,
nice nice apartments and condos nearby
so close to the Galleria, i could spend days and not visit all the stores
need to find someone rich who knows all the good places
i am in twilight, not really in focus, but not drifting aimlessly either
don't know where i am headed but at least not in neutral
day 2 day
week 2 week
2morrow is a new day
and yesterday i do not recall
leave behind the stress, the people that cry 'Will, Will, Will' for 'help, help, help'
can only do so much but have to remember i come first.

more photos to come - lesson to learn from them - don't lose your insurance
$100K doesn't fall out of the sky to replace your uninsured home.

a lesson above ALL to remember - we are the most fortunate people on the planet
OUR problems are minor compared to all else
you might eat ramen vs. a steak, think of those who have never tasted steak
we bitch that gas is $2.89 - at least we have a car
could be riding in a human-powered carriage in New Delhi
the haves vs. the have-nots
Bushy reminds us of that but to him it's something to snicker at, the bastard

i now lay this day to rest ~

more of the same
work, tv, work, tv, tv, tv, food, tv, and not necessarily in that order.

you can only count on yourself
becomes more clear each and every day
relying on someone means if something bad happens to you, well you can't complain about it
now maybe if i had a broken leg and needed a pain pill, that's one thing
but if you have the power to take care of your own needs and wants, then by all means do it.

feel sorry for the people more and more
one couple has no homeowner's coverage - expired 2 years ago - dunno if they know it
a collective sigh of sorrow.



quietly shopping around in my head for a new car
do i splurge like last time or be practical? coupe is looking more attractive
but for now, drive the truck till it dies.

off to dinner now ~ mmmmmm

first, thnx to all that have written asking wtf is up w/ me...

nice to know there are ppl out there that care, though couldn't say that shit about my lowlife scumbag white-trash alcoholic wife-cheating money-grubbing republican WASP
and yes, i AM a little bitter. details to come...

again, i tried to work today but i haven't gotten the knack of this program down, really weird, but also really shitty programming, random C++ errors, loves it, loves it much.

almost 20 down, but 55 more to go (will i remember this in a year?)

upside to this diversion to houston
i think i'll prolly turn fat like the rest of the city (famous for being fattest in the US).
why?
let's see - since thursday, eaten at Pappadeaux, Pappasitos, Outback, Outback.
however, it's not bad, cuz we haven't eaten lunch - there is nowhere to eat in cities like Beaumont or Vidor where there is almost no working utilities - now i know what poor people feel like, though i'm sure they'd want my shoes.

i can't let this post on day 5 end w/o mentioning something political.

Bushy nominated some cunt w/ no judicial experience to be the next justice of the SCOTUS.
cronies cronies cronies - the bitch was head of the Bar and worked for a second-rate law firm and happened to be Bushy's legal counsel.
i guess you suck the bushy Bushy cock, then you get to sit w/ the bigwigs on the Court.
dumbass POS

the best part? Conservatives are in an outrage that she isn't conservative enough, that she doesn't fit the mold, that she's not what they wanted. HAHAHAHA, losers! they thought Bush was their bestest friend in the whole world - they got screwed.
I am not kidding but I actually read comments today from avowed conservatives saying maybe now they wish they would have given Kerry a chance, that he wouldn't have been that bad. oh lord!

everyone have a lovely week, i am going to pass the fuck out...

Study: Adept Liars' Brains Are Built DifferentlyBy Robert Lee Hotz, Times Staff Writer
In the lexicon of lying, there are white lies and bare-faced lies. Facts can be fudged, forged or shaded. There are fibbers, fabricators and feckless fabulists. By whatever clinical term, the truth simply is not in some people.Now scientists have an anatomical inkling why.

A new study from the University of Southern California, published in the October issue of the British Journal of Psychiatry, suggests that the talent for compulsive deception is embedded in the structure of the brain itself. People who habitually lie and cheat — pathological liars — appear to have much more white matter, which speeds communication between neurons, in the prefrontal cortex than normal people, the researchers found. They also have fewer actual neurons. The differences affect a portion of the brain, located just behind the forehead, that enables people to feel remorse, learn moral behavior and plan complex strategies. The surplus of connections between neurons might enable these people to be more adept at the complex neural networking that underlies deceit. Lying is hard work and these brains may be better equipped to handle it, the researchers said."Lying is cognitively complex," said USC psychologist Adrian Raine, the senior scientist on the research project. "It is not easy to lie. It is certainly more difficult than telling the truth. Some people have a biological advantage in lying. It gives them a slight edge."The researchers recruited 108 volunteers, then sorted them into groups based on psychological tests designed to determine how often they lied. The volunteers were then scanned using magnetic structural imaging to obtain detailed anatomical images of their brain tissue.The group of compulsive liars had 25.7% more white matter in the prefrontal cortex and 14.2% less gray matter than the normal control group."To our knowledge, it is the first imaging study on people who lie, cheat and deceive as a group," Raine said.

today was better

got to sleep in
work a little, read email, "tried" to work some more
lunch break with sis
then 4 hour diversion to Galleria
ridiculous amount of shopping
a little more work

7-7,
12 hours in baking sun and humidity
mosquitoes go away! mating all over the place

nice folks glad to see us
they have "the look" - of despair, of confusion, of need, of wanting normalcy

starving by 8pm, nothing an Outback couldn't satiate
3 margaritas later, i reflect - what am i doing here?
was in my cushy little job and now doing manual labor
do i complain? hell no, glad to be working with dad, feel compelled to, right thing to do

think i might post the "emails" that got me here, that told me i suck as an employee, that told me i am a failure, that i am a slacker - instant breakdown, crying, how personal, how hateful

change was wanted, needed and was forced on me
repeat of last time...
why can't i be assertive and make changes?

day 2

in houston,
2 hours to drive 80 miles, wacky traffic
took many pictures of damage done by the 'cane though some do no justice

folks glad to see us,
we are the Savior, but with money and blessings of better times to come

3 hours to get back, wacky traffic,
a margarita and fish tacos appease the body and mind

reading the email, wishing some ppl would die, others to shut up
still floating in the middle, not jobless - yet

day 3 awaits...